Why does getting rejected on match.com bother me?

Seriously, I don't even know the guy, and I just emailed him on a lark cause I was bored last night.  Still, its just embarrassing or something, especially cause I really wasn't trying to hit on him so much as just pass the time at 12 when I couldn't sleep.  Oh well, he's looking to find "his own Tina Fey"- who writes that anyways?  Isn't that expecting a lot of a prospective date?  Does he just expect some chick to approach him with "Hey there, sexy- I'm the girl you've always wanted.  I will make you pee your pants with laughter, I'm soooo funny"...
I already paid for a month of their stupid service, but I'm tempted to cancel it early.  They rate us on things like whether we like thunderstorms and skinny dipping.  Of course I'm going to find my soulmate by seeing whether they have the same generic, fill in the bubble interests as me.  Not to mention that I feel kind of pathetic and desperate just for being on there, when all I wanted was to talk to ONE guy who never wrote me back cause he hasn't been to the stupid site in over a week.
Bah.  Even internet dating is stressful.  What a pain in the ass.
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    rejected rejected

NanoWrimo and other things

NanoWrimo is coming up (I just love that name).  I am currently writing a novel, but personally I feel like it would be total crap if I tried to write it in a month, or I'd manage to write it well, but only by dropping every other aspect of my life and probably going crazy in the process.  It is about 20 chapters long, each one about 17 pages and I'm on chapter 5, so its not like I don't have my work cut out for me.  In case anyone is curious, my novel is about a girl who begins writing a story and ends up breaking from reality in the process when she starts having delusions that her characters are trying to communicate with her and are writing life simultaneosly as she writes theirs.  Its a bit trippy.   
I'm really confident that my plot is solid and I have it all outlined and know exactly where I'm going, which in addition to buying every book on writing in print, helps keep me motivated and inspired to continue writing.  I'm really hoping to get it published someday, though that might be a few years in the future, cause I have high aspirations and expectations for my own writing.  Its more the writing itself that I'm concerned about, as I've already mentioned that I'm pretty confident that the plot is original and interesting.

Maybe I can set some other goal for myself for the month besides finishing the whole novel, like getting the next three chapters done or something...

I feel like my novel belongs amongst literary novels because of the subject matter, which is a nervy and rather presumptuous thing to say because literary novels are supposed to be superbly written according to what I've come to understand about the genre- which I'm not necessarily saying is true about mine, I just see the heavy subject matter and kind of bizzare plot line fitting into that catagory.

Being a novelist is not necessarily the easiest road to making a living (ha!  there's an understatement), and some of the novels that breakout into being cult classics are not always deserving of it.  For example (and I am preparing myself to duck tomatoes for this) I am really not a fan of the Twilight series.  And I'm not saying this simply because they're popular- hey, I'm a Harry Potter fan.  I just think they're rather unoriginal and are liked by people who don't realise that they're rehashing the same vampire cliches established by Anne Rice.  I'm tired of handsome, mysterious vampires- where is the ugly, misunderstood geeky vampire?  I want to see that love story!  I did read the first novel, Twilight itself, and it just wasn't my cup of tea.  I think it was about the point when Bella says that her favorite color is topaz because that's the color of Edward's eyes (but of course it changes as his eyes do) that I put the book down and laughed.  Oh the cheesiness...
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    cheerful cheerful

I'm...working..yeah...


I love my work.  I get to do things like hang out with my friend and watch Freaks and Geeks.  Ah, Freaks and Geeks... so brilliant, so underappreciated.  And Karen and Dana, the ladies I work with, are so funny and sweet sometimes.  I brought Dana to the coffee shop the other day and she wouldn't leave, she just hunkered down and was like "nope, I live here now."  I had to bribe her with candy, which she had completely forgot about by the time we got home, haha.

I worked a crapload this weekend cause my coworker got strep, but I got the chance to go out last night and had a great time.  I dressed up in my black clothes and tall lace up boots and went to Goth night, where I happened to run into every person I've ever met.  Ok, well, not really, but it seemed a bit like that. 

They should call them dumb looking cars...

Seriously- I mean, are smart cars not the stupidest looking devices designed by humans, or am I just crazy?!

I'm annoyed cause I signed up for match.com just so I could email this really cute guy and he hasn't been online since!  Who signs up for match.com and then ignores it for a week?  Gah.  I mean, its not even that he saw and wasn't interested, he hasn't even seen my profile, which means he didn't read the email cause who doesn't look at the profile of someone who sends them an email at a dating site?  Even if you think they're ugly you'll at least take a look cause you're curious.

I know, I may be a little impatient here but he's so cute and he likes indie music and dancing and I really want to see what he says!

I've decided that my priorities up until now have been a little eschewed.  This time I'm shooting for the moon.  I won't settle for an average looking guy who ends up dumping me cause they "just can't see this being long term".  This time- I am going to have the whole picture, dammit!  Looks, personality, and well- at least someone who thinks they want some sort of level of commitment...

Yeah, I know:  good luck with that, Annie.  *sigh*
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    Crooked Teeth, Death Cab

I hate the UC system with a fiery burning passion

I know, I said I'd write every day.  But in Annie speak that actually means I'll write every day for about 3 days and then start missing a day... and then two... and then end up a year later reviving this again.  Sigh.  The good thing is that I don't believe anyone actually cares anyways.

Did I mention that I'm in a really freaking pessimistic mood right now?  I got a note from my friend today telling me that the science illustration program at UCSC, that I've been planning on enrolling in for 3 YEARS now, has been canceled.  Here I am, getting ready to apply for next year's program, getting my portfolio ready and they've canceled the thing!  I feel like crying.  I am so angry I don't feel like doing anything for this stupid school anymore.  All they've done is waste my time.  The only reason I've put up with their CRAP art program was to get into this program.  And now I'm gonna have nothing to show for it.

I'm so angry.  I just feel so helpless, I wish I had some power in this world so I could make people listen to me, the people who screw me over like this.
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    aggravated aggravated

Hellooooooo out there!

I don't know if any of you remember me.   I have let my livejournal fall into barren, barren disarray.  I was never much of a blogging type much before this, I mostly used it for Harry Potter stuff, but I have gotten more enthusiastic about such things lately and I am going to try and make a go of actually posting on this daily.  Harry Potter still has a fond place in my heart, but it is no longer taking up so much of my life anymore, so I will be blogging about current events, my life and other little nuggets of wisdom I pick up in my life.

As for what has been going on with me, I am now living in Northern California, studying art at UC Santa Cruz.  I am in route to being a scientific illustrator and art therapist, or at least that is what I hope.  I am currently working with disabled adults, and I have a plan when I am done with my 3 year supposed art therapy program to start a high school which will intergrate all students with disabilities (developmental, physical, mental, learning) who are able to participate in a respectful, nurturing environment where they can learn how to cope with their disabilities and thrive in life.  It will also be an arts high school, like the one I went to in Orange County, but less forcused on honing a specific skill as using art for therapeutic purposes.  I can't wait until I have the training to try and implement this.

On a public service announcement kind of note, Governor Schwarz. is once again trying to screw over the least fortunate of out population by cutting budgets to people with disabilities.  As if it isn't hard enough to be born with a disability, we're now cutting the funding that people who are completely unable to work are counting to live on? I will hopefully post more information on this later if you are interested in writing or otherwise protesting. 

Moving on, I am happy about the results of the election, except for Prop 8, which I did NOT support.  It saddens me that some people are so threatened by two people wanting to announce and express their love.  If marriage is supposedly such a sacred *religious* union, why are we not banning non religious people from marrying and making them have a civil union as well?  Not that I'm supporting that, but it just shows the hypocrisy.

On another note, Check out the the world's response to Obama's victory:
http://en. wikipedia. org/wiki/International_reaction_to_the_2008_United_States_presidential_election

This is pretty impressive.  How wonderful that we get a chance to repair the bad rep we've gotten with Bush in office. I'm happy that its so positive but I hope they're not expecting miracles. Expecting one man to solve the whole world's problems seems to me to be setting yourself up for disappointment.


On the other hand, this could be wonderful for peaceful negotiation and the US's worldwide opinion, so long as Obama doesn't do anything to screw it up a la Bush.


Anyways, that is a little nutshell of what's going on in my life and the world.  I will continue blogging and hopefully gain a bit of an audience so I don't feel like I'm completely talking to myself, but its all good.  Hopefully life has treated all of you that I've friended on here well in the last few years.  RIP Sugarquill, but yay for new adventures!
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    Crisis 1 and 2, The Dears

Summit minutes from the first So Cal summit

Minutes from the first So Cal Summit
January 29th, 2004
(by sveltskye)

Luckily for my nerves the rain that had shown up the few days before was gone by the afternoon of our Summit, the 29th. I (sveltskye) and my friend Heather hopped out of our car and dashed through Downtown Disney and past security in an attempt to make it to the meeting place (the C of the California sign in front of California Adventures) by 3:00, since I was feeling rather paranoid about everyone finding each other. We made it more or less on time, but as I walked up I was surprised to find a large ring of Quillers waiting for us- who knew that So Cal Quillers were so punctual? They even had a “SUGARQUILL” sign, airport style.

I could barely contain my excitement (and I’m sure it showed :D) as we joined the group and began to make introductions. It was weird, but completely awesome to meet these people whom I’d talked to so many times online but never connected a face to, and somehow I felt like we were kindred spirits already. Adara was so sweet and Queenie was fun and talkative and shared a funny resemblance Zsenya (or at least the photos I’ve seen of her). Tony was just as friendly and easygoing as he’d sounded in emails, and Susan Lynn was incredibly nice as well. Tony, Queenie and Adara had also brought along their parents, and Susan Lynn her T.A. Heidi and son Andrew, and after sharing where we all were from I was really impressed by their support and willingness to drive so long to meet fellow fans. While we were waiting for other possible arrivals, Heather and I talked with Queenie about HDM and her crossover fic, which I had read, and Tony and Adara told us more about the PoA party they’d been to in San Diego.
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[SIZE=1]Quillers- The So Cal branch.[/SIZE]


After a while someone suggested that we take photos. Heather took the sign and wrote Potter For President and we all posed with it.
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[SIZE=1] Sugar Quill parents- Queenie’s mom, Katie’s mom, and my surrogate mom (hehe, just kidding) [/SIZE]

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[SIZE=1] Posting the new and improved sign [/SIZE]

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[SIZE=1]Queenie, Adara and Tony by the sea- *ahem*, I mean C[/SIZE]

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[SIZE=1] Heidi, Susan Lynn and me[/SIZE]


After a while we decided to stop standing around and do something productive- eat! We sauntered into “Naples Restaurante e Pizzeria” and got to know each other over pizza that was surprisingly good for its price. At one end of the table Heather and her new best friends Heidi and Queenie bonded over manga and anime. I sat next to Adara and across from Tony and Susan Lynn and shared some interesting conversations with the three of them, about everything from my experiences at UCI and theirs in home schooling to fan fiction and the SQ. I learned that Susan Lynn is a great fan of Katinka’s fics, which I hadn’t read but have heard a lot about, and that she teaches second language children- by reading them Harry Potter, which is really cool. It was great to meet one of the many “SQ moms” and I thought it was exciting to meet someone who was older than me but still shared one of my biggest interests. Tony shared that his favorite HP characters were Fred and George and that he’d even written a fan fic about them (I believe he was working on writing his 19th chapter at the time- it’s under Antonio here at the Quill, so go check it out and support your local writer(s) ^_^). I was also excited- and a little freaked- to learn that Susan Lynn had shown some of my fan art to her class.

When we finished eating we gathered around to take yet *more* pictures to add to the collection, along with the ones Tony and his mom- self professed digital camera fanatics- had taken while buzzing around the table during dinner.


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[SIZE=1]From the left: Adara, me, Susan Lynn’s son Andrew and Adara’s mom at the restaurant[/SIZE]

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[SIZE=1]The other end of the table: Heather and Queenie[/SIZE]

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[SIZE=1] Another group picture?![/SIZE]



From there we decided to “cruise the block”. We paid a visit to the World of Disney and nearly got lost in it when we couldn’t find Tony’s mom. It took us nearly half an hour to realize that she’d gone outside- any longer and we probably would’ve had to move in! Heidi, Susan Lynn and Andrew had to part company with us in the store in order to start their long trek home to LA. While we were waiting in the store, we remaining Quillers took the time to sign and date our sign, deciding that we’d make it into a keepsake that we could bring to all our future Summits. Heather and I even added our own little artistic touches.

Outside of the store we- guess what- took yet more pictures ^_^

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[SIZE=1] That wonderfully wonderful World of Disney[/SIZE]

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[SIZE=1]So many cameras, so little time.[/SIZE]
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[SIZE=1] From left: Tony, Heather, me, Adara, and Queenie[/SIZE]

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By this time, we decided to make our way toward the parking lot. Along the way, though, we saw a bookstore and of course decided to go in for “a little bit” (right, hah.) We found ourselves a little nook, sat down and did what Quillers do best: read. I spotted a DC comic book and for a while Adara, Tony, Heather and I had a fun time pointing out some of the weirder, lesser known heroes and villains, finding our own HP “characters”.

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[SIZE=1]Queenie in her own little world[/SIZE]

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[SIZE=1] Adara’s mom shows off her catch[/SIZE]
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[SIZE=1]Poring over the comic book[/SIZE]

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[SIZE=1]Tony, well camouflaged in the forest of books[/SIZE]


Long after we’d entered the store, all of us finally picked up and made our way to the parking lot, realizing that most still had a long drive home. I bid everyone goodbye, sorry to see them go. And there endeth a truly great day (which is good, because I’m awfully tired of typing).

Fin

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I feel like crap. This has been the worst week of my life. I've screwed up everything. First I found out that I had failed the Chem midterm I thought I had aced and now I actually missed my Art History class final- a class I was sure I was going to get an A in. I did the stupidest thing ever, I read the finals chart wrong and thought it was on Thursday instead of Tuesday. God I do the most idiotic things sometime and now I just want to listen to Sarah Mclachlan song and cry but I have two more stupid finals tomorrow, one of them for Chem which I'm probably going to fail also. I was such a good student in high school and in just a couple years at a University I might have completely ruined my chances for Grad School. I HATE UCI.
Now I'm going on vacation to Hawaii and how am I supposed to enjoy it? I didn't mean to mess up it happened before I knew it and now I don't know what to do.

Too depressed for a title

I feel like crap. This has been the worst week of my life. I've screwed up everything. First I found out that I had failed the Chem midterm I thought I had aced and now I actually missed my Art History class final- a class I was sure I was going to get an A in. I did the stupidest thing ever, I read the finals chart wrong and thought it was on Thursday instead of Tuesday. God I do the most idiotic things sometime and now I just want to listen to Sarah Mclachlan song and cry but I have two more stupid finals tomorrow, one of them for Chem which I'm probably going to fail also. I was such a good student in high school and in just a couple years at a University I might have completely ruined my chances for Grad School. I HATE UCI.
Now I'm going on vacation to Hawaii and how am I supposed to enjoy it? I didn't mean to mess up it happened before I knew it and now I don't know what to do.
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    How Stupid Could I Be? Appropriate

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I feel like crap. This has been the worst week of my life. I've screwed up everything. First I found out that I had failed the Chem midterm I thought I had aced and now I actually missed my Art History class final- a class I was sure I was going to get an A in. I did the stupidest thing ever, I read the finals chart wrong and thought it was on Thursday instead of Tuesday. God I do the most idiotic things sometime and now I just want to listen to Sarah Mclachlan song and cry but I have two more stupid finals tomorrow, one of them for Chem which I'm probably going to fail also. I was such a good student in high school and in just a couple years at a University I might have completely ruined my chances for Grad School. I HATE UCI.
Now I'm going on vacation to Hawaii and how am I supposed to enjoy it? I didn't mean to mess up it happened before I knew it and now I don't know what to do.
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    How Stupid Could I Be? Appropriate